i miss my dad

Sometimes when i look at the empty furniture in the living room, or the shoe rack with my dad's shoes, i feel really sad. i feel like theres this injustice and that i just have to shout and scream it out, why! i really miss my dad who was my pillar of strength, life is going to be hard without him. i know that hes in heaven now without tears and he wont want to see my cry or sad either. But its just so painful to remember him, so painful. Jesus please wipe away my tears and give me and my mother strength to overcome this.

Jesus is real

Though times for me now are not really the same since my dad issnt with us anymore, i really feel Jesus holding me now. Last night when i was sleeping i kept having nightmares and was in fear and uncertainty over the future, i do not know why but everynight i may think about my dad and be really afraid and really scared about life as i do not know how to face it. This would lead me to lose sleep and have nightmares. I woke up at 3am after a nightmare of running away from people. In my dream i was being chased by this person and i had to keep running and scaling walls. After i went to the toilet and came back i told my mum i couldnt sleep and she gave me a quater of a sleeping pill. I went back to bed but i still felt very afraid and very anxious. I didnt know how my future would be and i needed assurance. I prayed. I was crying when i started praying but as i prayed on my tears just didnt flow anymore and my heart was provided with this shalom peace that i know only Jesus could give. He assured me that everything is alright and even gave me a picture in my mind that He is dancing with my father! How wonderful it is to have that image! soon i fell asleep and i know that Jesus is with me 24hrs of the day and whenever i call he would come, to assure and comfort, as he is the prince of peace.

bye dad

Goodbye dad. See you in heaven