Sunday, May 3, 2009

Jesus is real

Though times for me now are not really the same since my dad issnt with us anymore, i really feel Jesus holding me now. Last night when i was sleeping i kept having nightmares and was in fear and uncertainty over the future, i do not know why but everynight i may think about my dad and be really afraid and really scared about life as i do not know how to face it. This would lead me to lose sleep and have nightmares. I woke up at 3am after a nightmare of running away from people. In my dream i was being chased by this person and i had to keep running and scaling walls. After i went to the toilet and came back i told my mum i couldnt sleep and she gave me a quater of a sleeping pill. I went back to bed but i still felt very afraid and very anxious. I didnt know how my future would be and i needed assurance. I prayed. I was crying when i started praying but as i prayed on my tears just didnt flow anymore and my heart was provided with this shalom peace that i know only Jesus could give. He assured me that everything is alright and even gave me a picture in my mind that He is dancing with my father! How wonderful it is to have that image! soon i fell asleep and i know that Jesus is with me 24hrs of the day and whenever i call he would come, to assure and comfort, as he is the prince of peace.

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